To claim that I have always known my abilities would be a lie. To claim that I was given mysterious ancestral gifts after a special, secret initiation would be even more so.
It's the story of a human being who, over the years, has become aware of who she is by breaking free of dogmas and limiting precepts.
And yet there is a framework: the one woven by history, which, kept quiet for decades, provided here and there a few clues that I didn't follow, associating these romanticised facts with folklore.
What remained of these legends is essentially what laid the foundations: a great-grandfather who healed at a distance and an uncle who was a fire-cutter.
I never question them, knowing I didn't think myself gifted even if certain strange situations contradicted me.
I put this down to misinterpretation or chance.
Life led me to settle in Paris as a young adult being, after years abroad, and then to follow a classic career path, with the ambition of climbing the steps of success without counting the steps, thanks to which some of my assets were revealed.
Only one thing was missing from this picture: a place to belong, the feeling that I was where I was supposed to be; my human function, quite simply.
These functions gave me the fleeting feeling that I had reached my goal. The craving for life carried me away to a universe opposite to my real identity to inflict on me the illusion that power was a title.
Nothing is more tenacious than a form of suppressed truth. It infiltrates the slightest flaw: again and again, a diffuse feeling of having to deconstruct to build something different kept imposing itself.
In the last song, I ended up throwing in the towel to begin a more personal journey: no drugs, no excessive alcohol, no pills, but the search for what carried me, without even knowing at the time that I was looking for it. It was the early 2000s.
REALISATION
For several years, people had been telling me that my presence was producing changes in their condition: pain disappeared, sleep returned when they experienced so many nights with insomnia, stress became non-existent and many other effects without me ever having shown any intention.
Several years passed before I gave importance to these situations: of a Cartesian nature, proof by fact is my line of conduct.
With my identity, honour and reputation at stake, I could not pretend to tackle some themes or use some tools without absolute confidence in what I was doing.
✓
I've taken the time to test, question, and confirm how my abilities work, and I never tire of discovering their subtleties.
For several years, I've been happily practising this profession, which fulfils me a little more each day. Witnessing so much relief and receiving so much gratitude is a privilege I cherish.
Of course, I'm working to provide relief, but one absolute certainty stands out: every success brings me back to the core.
✓
I've also been able to "encounter" an "other" reality, the one that physicists are only just beginning to glimpse and understand.
I've accepted this "invisible and silent world," rich in meaning, independent of any dogma, made available to improve our human condition.
I work with what I know, I master, and I share it during private meetings.
Karyn